Burymedeep’s Weblog

I’ll erase that part of me. I’ll erase it. I won’t let it ruin me. I won’t let it control me. I won’t let it devour my heart.

I will move on.

i will kill myself slowly. i will murder my soul. I will torture myself. I will make me bleed. Then and only then may i be able to enter his hell.

I will fell the pain. And i will be content with it. For it is what i deserve. isn’t it? Isn’t it???

Tell me it isn’t . Please tell me it isn’t what i deserve. Please shelter my heart and pierce it so all the guilt and pain will flow out. Please show me your smile again. Show me your smile that made my heart melt and made me want more. show me your face. Your face that made me always want to smile. show it to me. ask me why i am sad one last time and i will tell you the truth. If you don’t want me I’ll understand.

I ask too much of you. i alwasy do that. i ask too much of everyone and yet deliver none.

I AM A SEWER RAT. A PATHETIC FUCK BAG X(

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

Words. thats all i can deliver.